I have read this entire thread and now feel ready to post a few thoughts, a little insight and some of what my personal...
nightmare is about - as best I know.
For several years I have had some sort of seizure disorder. Cause unknown. Treatment has been varied until the last 3 years, roughly.
The seizures
seem to be under control but I still experience somehting, something bad that I do not want!
Almost 40, ten days out now, I am still searching for what brings on these 'episodes' and how to
stop them. This is what has brought me to your fine forum and idea exchange.
The Problem:
Perhaps best to describe it as anxiety or 'panic attack'. I usually sense it coming on, often nothing I can do. The urgency erupts to a peek level - regardless of where in a breathing cycle I am ( inhale, exhale or just in between) I cease: stop breathing.
By others accounts, as usually I am not all there for a short period of time, I become red and tense, very tense. These are most always within the first hour of waking up, be it after a (solid) nap mid-day or in the AM. Seldom will it occur mid-day.
A week ago I did an ambulatory eeg ( ie: I wear the head gear for 24-hrs ) - nothing was unusual and nothing happened - of course I had a great sleep that night, go figure
I take Depakote and Keppra Side effect include anxiety... ( and thoughts of suicide, but that is not a concern, just a way I humor myself a bit). I will start taking lamitcal soon with the others and see if this helps...
My neurologist and GP both think they are 'break through' seizures. I am not sure, I think whatever it is really terrible, obviously I want to have nothing to do with it at any level. Unfortunately, it will not go away on it's own volition so I have to be diligent and peruse venues that the Doc may not.
More of a commonality for me and my new 'breather' friends:
At night I often wake up, sitting up fast and bursting out with a few words or a sentence. Sometimes in non-sequetor fashion and other times in conclusion to a dream; likely in rem sleep ( 1/2 awake anyway). Until recently, I have slept well until about 4-5 AM then it is on and off every ( what seems like) couple mins; likely 20-30 min intervals. There are a few more lessor aspects that perhaps will merit a mention later.
In fear of going long, if not too late, I will step down and see what else comes this way.
Thanks for your attention... certainly any insight would be appreciated.
-SA