I actually have unrelenting brainfog. As someone previously mentioned, English had always been my best subject in school, but now I need to involve great effort not only to formulate ledgable writing, but now, to get even a modicum of comprehensible discourse out of my mouth. I actually have to take a year out from my Journalism degree because I simply cannot form my own opinions on anything anymore due to this perpetual fog - and my parents can't understand, they thing I'm just useless. I am useless, in this state. It tends to vaguely ease at night, which then causes me to want to stay up an extra hour or two just so I can actually remember how it is to actually be able to think straight.
One of the most devastating effects is the lack of ability to comprehend speech. It just seems to go in one ear and out the other, and all I can manage is a "yeah". In fact at times I'm non-responsive. I suppose I can understand what people are saying, but I cant respond. Depersonalisation due to sleep deprivation, I'm sure of it. In the past, the only method of lifting it was combining alcohol with smoking small quantities of cannabis - but I certainly wont be venturing that route. Other utter disasters are ridiculously futile attempts at making coffee but forgetting to actually put the milk and coffee into the cup and catching myself just in time before I give my lip second degree burns, remembering what day it is or having to constantly recheck the clock because I forgot what time I "noted" merely 5-10 seconds ago, or expressing emotion. As I wrote in my journal earlier, the fog prohibits me from successfully achieving anything other than eating, drinking, smoking, urinating - and of course, depositing feces.
Anyway, I've emailed a sleep specialist and I'll know in a few days when I can get a consultation and home sleep study arranged, so thats relieving.

